Went to a step meeting tonight and the topic was step 10. I'm thoroughly looking forward to start working on that one. I do believe, however, that I've started on it sneakily without knowing it already just by way of stopping drinking. Taking personal inventory regularly is a must for me otherwise I go off the rails completely and can let myself get carried away by resentments and frustrations. It happens on a regular basis if I don't watch myself. Luckily, because of this magical toolbox, I don't have to endure those episodes as often as before, and for that I'm truly grateful. I've learnt tonight that reactions are not always good. When I get angry or frustrated, do I really need to react? Do I really need to say anything? Or can I just shut up and look at my own part in it? In the reading it said that if you're feeling angry or resentful about something you are in the wrong somewhere along the line. There are such a things as justified anger, but who are we to judge what is and what is not? I've never been very good at knowing these things, and might never get any better at it. But what I can get better at is controlling my reactions and realise that people don't always need to be told what's what. At the end of the day it doesn't matter who's right or who's wrong, just how you handle the situation.
Learning is great! May it never stop.
Just being aware and mindful of ourselves at the very moment of ignition is so powerful.
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