Freedom

The word that keeps pooping into my head this morning is "freedom". Although it's only day three and I'm constantly going to have to watch my thoughts and actions - I still feel more free than I have done in many years. 

I'm going to spend the rest of the morning dozing with a book or magazine, I think. Then I'm going to meet one of my dear AA friends for coffee in the afternoon. After that I need to see my nurse for a check up at his office which is just around the corner from where I live. 

I'm itching to start making plans for the future, but I'm a bit worried it might be too early. I'm still dosed up on sedatives and although my my mind feels less fussy than when I was constantly drunk or hungover, I'm in no way clear headed. I think I might just wait until I'm free of the Librium as well. I'm also trying to read the Big Book but keep falling asleep and having to re-read paragraphs, so I'll leave that as well for later! I'll have to make do with shorter readings from Share magazines, that's just about what I can handle at the moment...